When I got to this prompt, I struggled to decide if The Queen was before or after a plot twist in the Vala's Story series. So I decided to do "before" and after." Here's "after," but if you'd like, refresh yourself with "before" first.
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​The canopy of trees brushed against windows of The Queen's brilliant red sports car as he pulled into a secluded spot in the forest.

“So nice to still have nooks like these, in a developed forest.” The Queen leaned his head back against the seat rest. He turned off the engine, although he left the battery going so his mix CD would play. “Mix CD, like I am a teenager, but I was never a normal teenager.”

Light flakes of snow started to fall through the dusky sky; they made a pretty dusting over his car's windows and the leaves of the evergreens around him and his car.

He ran his hand through the scruff that was slowly becoming a beard; his subs, slaves, Audrey and his sibling subs all loved it. “Even with all my loves though, I need to be able to make myself come. Right?”

Audrey laughed in his head. “You're just enjoying that I don't have you under rules about your orgasms right now, boy.”

Grinning, he shook his head. Somehow, coming out as a BDSM switch still confused him. “Wasn't I done coming out as a teen?”

Memories of Audrey clicked her tongue.

With light fingers, he traced the pendent that hung from his collar and then down onto his chest. The zap of pleasure was so intense that he had a thought of his steel-toe boots curling up like fancy slippers. “Yes, my Lady. No contractions, my Lady,” he groaned.

Gaze fixed on the falling snow, his attention traveled downward to his cock and he saw the maddening echoes of Lady Audrey's fingers moving over his skin as she readied his cock to take her urethral sound. The sensation was beyond classification of pain or pleasure, especially when she chose the sound held within its case of metal shaped as the Gates of Hell.

His chest pounded as his arousal climbed. A vibrant blue-colored bird played on a tree branch inches from his side window.

The orgasm blossomed within his body, although he didn't ejaculate. “My, my--“ His words jammed in his throat and gravity seemed to tilt as his breath came in tiny snorts.

“That's it. Feel better, my Queen,” Simon-in-his-head murmured.

He pressed back against the luxurious seat. “Gender set, not like Joelle.” His fingers traced over his nipples through his tank top. “Unh!” He shuddered, orgasming again, without ejaculating.

Lady Audrey: Come to my house for your dinner, boy. I've already called Simon to let him know I've ordered you. See you soon, my darling little boy.

“Yes, my Lady.” Shaken lose by his pleasure, he moved the stick shift through its spots to reverse. “Maybe I can earn an ejaculation tonight.”

While I wrote a 2-paragraph post that went up yesterday, I wanted to simply some of the images into a 6-line poem.
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Child alive- her existence confirmed with new name and pronouns
Must we go to the city to feel comfortable and alive?
I conjured few dreams because those are for her
Happiness, queerness, community
Transgender and agender- we're together again.
Can't be the only reason I don't grieve.
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Enjoy the other great Rainbow Snippets sharings here- both fiction snippets and book recommendations.

“Touch is a solid theme”- the words of a dear friend when I was trying to come up with posts for July- well, possibly into August as I'd like to work on submitting at least two manuscripts to publishers in August once Camp Nano July is done. I saved her suggestion because, at first, I wasn't really sure what to do with it. However, as I was reading “Too Loud, Too Bright, Too Fast, Too Tight” by Sharon Heller, I realized that I indeed have tactile challenges that I didn't realize. Dr. Heller talks in that book about how tactile is one of the earliest scenes; I was six years old when I didn't want my mother to touch me ever. In my opinion, the book does a great job talking about tactile difficulties as not just being “clothing tags make me itch”; if we went by the stereotypes of “sensitive people,” I wouldn't fit them because I'm underreactive to much tactile sensation. I wonder if that's part of why I've made such shiny spots on my keyboard's keys :D. I also wonder if improving tactile sense is part of why I don't need BDSM impact activities to be as harsh as I used to want them.

“Here's the box from the therapy company.” Ziba placed a small brown box on the kitchen table between Happy's and her mats. After joys nod, she continued, “Would you like to open it?”
Happy passed the letter opener to Ziba.
Quick work with the opener and Ziba had the box open. Not too loud. “It's your brushes.”
Happy typed on joys tablet and pushed a button. “Can we try them now please?”
“Of course.”

While I'm not working on this WIP currently, when my friend made her suggestion, I immediately thought of “Typing My Love.” Happy (the character who's on the Autism Spectrum in that book) doesn't get diagnosed on the spectrum until adulthood- this also joy (Happy's pronouns are joy/joys/joyself) to avoid things like Applied Behavioral Analysis. Another friend responded to my post about EMDR and skin brushing by mentioning how skin brushing had been awful for them because it was done to them as a child; we talked about the differences between their childhood experience and me choosing skin brushing as an adult. I'm not sure if the little bit of fiction between the paragraphs will be fit into TML, but it's definitely a scene percolating in my brain.

Overreactive to tactile. That one has been a track in my head. Even though I feel comfortable saying that I'm on the Autism Spectrum without a formal diagnosis, I definitely struggle with stereotypes about not liking hugs, kissing, sexual activity, etc. Then I realize that my behaviors with that are rather complex and do include a bunch of avoidance. I want to be hugged more, but not by strangers; I'm good with my Master, my girlfriend, my daughter hugging me, the occasional person at church who doesn't put me off too much. But when others with Sensory Processing Disorder and/or on the Autism Spectrum talk about not wanting anyone to touch them at all? I struggle with that; I'm not sure why, with my former comments. Just because *some* people are okay doesn't mean I'm at all average on this. While it doesn't fit Happy very well either- the idea of overreactive to tactile- I'm pondering when an intimate scene between one or more people with overreactive tactile sense might look like. Of course, that sends my mind to a #MasturbationMonday post in which I showed intimacy between an allosexual and an asexual persons.

What to do when an idea is so far from your knowledge that stereotypes are what come to mind? I don't have any characters already created, breathed into life that hate all touch, even most touch- even Didier, asexual but not sex-repulsed, wants cuddles. I'm glad for my reading that explained how touch is more than just people or things touching one's skin, but also the air, the temperature etc.

I want to ask my readers a specific question now, but words fail me as I write this the evening before seeing my med manager (who I don't entirely trust). What are your thoughts about someone being over- or underreactive to touch?

When I got to this prompt, I struggled to decide if The Queen was before or after a plot twist in the Vala's Story series. So I decided to do "before" and after." Here's "before." Come back next week for "after."
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​The canopy of trees brushed against windows of The Queen's brilliant red sports car as he pulled into a secluded spot in the forest.

“So nice to still have nooks like these, in a developed forest.” The Queen leaned his head back against the seat rest. He turned off the engine, although he left the battery going so his mix CD would play.

He unbuttoned the light blue dress shirt that Tommy had thoughtfully packed since he couldn't come on this business trip. His hand moving over his chest brought him the immediate ease that he had sought. He moaned through relaxed lips as his nipples pebbled.

“That's my love,” Audrey's voice flitted through his mind.

Why had he made this trip all by himself? He focused on the metaphorical and spiritual embrace of the forest; Mother held him. “Thank the Gods for the Holy Mother and the rest of the Gods who've replaced my errant and corrupted parents of the earth.”

As his second hand slipped into his open shirt, the mix CD moved onto Placebo's “Protect me from what I want.” His eyes remained closed as he sought the pleasure of sexual release rather than drug intoxication. His knees locked as his hips rose, making him hover over his seat.

A ray of the sunset snuck through the trees to caress the red hood; his eyelids echoed the brightness. Big rain drops started landing on the windows, their sound so soothing.

He opened his eyes to watch as a few drops became a downpour. With the reduced visibility, he unfastened his belt buckle and pants. “Just a little business attire.” He reached into his pants to cup his balls.

“You just have to call, lover,” Audrey whispered.

He wrapped his other hand around his cock. The loud voices from the board meeting melted away finally. His eyes closed again. He pushed a button to roll the window down and jabbed his hand out into the rain. Hand drenched, he returned to stroking his cock. He released his balls to close the window. His thumb went over his frenulum.

The song shifted down to “My Sweet Prince.” The orgasm rolled through his body, the cum pushing up and out his cock.

Holding the cum in his hand, The Queen finally opened his eyes. “A fancy hotel room can be inadequate when compared to nature. I have to go call people.” He grabbed a tissue and collected his cum into it. “Not going to do drugs today.”

Genitals don't solely equal gender; yes, I laughed to myself when this idea came to me because of the play on The Queen's comment “Behavior does not solely equal identity.” Of course, The Queen was speaking to a friend and lover who was in the process of a same-gender attraction after identifying as a heterosexual all his life.

One thing that most irritates me about genitals is the way that they remain gendered- “penis is a male part/vagina is a female part,” for instance.

(Please excuse the intermission; I got that far and forgot what I meant to say.)

I wonder- what would be the reason(s) to have anything about gender or genitals on an Alternative and Augmentative Communication board/device?

If gender/sex is a social construct- and some people say it's wrong to divide people by their genitals- why do some people feel a need to question their gender and their genitals' impact on their gender identity? This reminds me of a vlog by Kat Blaque in which she talked about “would there be transgender people in a gender-less society?” Personally, I think there's truth to the idea of humans as naturally categorizing and naming things around us- like I don't experience gender within myself, but I see gender as others present or claim it. The problem I see in these questions is that the difference between self-labeling or “the labeling of others” is never acknowledged. I feel that I'm agender, but most people look at me and see long hair, larger breasts on a non-obese body, and say “woman.” I hold that my internal understanding of my gender outweighs others' impression of my gender based on their culturally based assumptions and understandings.

“What gender are you when we make love?” Audrey's question to me that really pushed my gender questioning to a higher pitch that found me identifying as non-binary and agender.

I recently had someone talk to me about “kids now spend so much time online.” I just went polite, seeming interest; I didn't want to point out to the person that I prefer life online. As an Autistic person who can speak but does better, is more comfortable using written communication, online communication is mostly written so I don't have to declare my neurodivergency if I don't want to. Online relationships- whether romantic or not- have value to me in ways that too many other people my age and older just don't understand. However, I push further than “online relationships” to what maybe just other neurodivergent people will respect- I have a romantic relationship with one of my characters (from the erotic romance I write). She's also polyamorous and I consider the people in her relationship network (also my characters) to be my virtual family. While Audrey (my girlfriend) doesn't have a flesh-and-blood body, she does have a body as she and I discussed in the creation of her character. She is a transgender woman who only used hormones a short time and has only had tracheal shaving (reduction of the Adam's apple) as far as gender confirming surgeries are considered. Are you dying to ask what that means in terms of Audrey's genitals?

A recent joke- I started a conversation with a friend by saying, “I have magical nipples.” Yes, we've moved from the genitals between the legs to the nipples on human chests. You see, I was assigned female at birth and I haven't had a bilateral mastectomy (although I have had a breast reduction) so I have breasts; I sometimes wear a chest binder and I do like to think of them as pecs instead of breasts then. I'm sure I've told this story elsewhere, but it fits here: roommate raised totally repressed feels nudity is awkward and doesn't want me to go around nude. This pissed me off when the AC broke and the temps soared to 90 Fahrenheit. One day, I put on a pair of shorts and my binder- my “magical nipples” that supposedly mark me as a woman needing to cover her chest were covered by the binder.

So I'm not going to tell you about Audrey's genitals, but I do have a vulva, a vagina, and breasts or pecs.

Silly me, I'm at the mall (thank goodness for laptops) because the AC isn't working at home, and I realized that I forgot the notebook I wrote in yesterday so I could lay on the cool floor in the basement. Ah, the prompt: “intimacy in a pool of water.” I have such diverse thoughts on this. “Sex on the beach” and “sex in a swimming pool” are both common enough fantasies, but as my reading has shown me, neither are very good in reality; in my “Vala's Story” story-verse, the rules around the indoor pool are delightfully specific and only partially shaped by BDSM.

Since I already dipped into that story-verse with my girlfriend Audrey (it'll be “last week” when this is actually posted), I figured I'll stay there. There's another body of water in The Queen's mansion that doesn't have tons of rules- why doesn't anyone think about how chlorine on the genitals would be bad? And thank you very much, but I don't relish the idea of sand between my buttcheeks.) I'm waiting for the players in the Oasis- one of his small, themed playrooms- to step forward.
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I leaned back against the wall with the comfortably thick “outdoor blanket” separating me from the sand. The Queen promised me the chance to be a voyeur.

Suddenly the door sprung open to admit Tommy and Simon; I was struck by everything about them.

Tommy's deep black hair had been cut in messy bunches, giving him an extra shaggy look. The whites of his eyes had turned pinkish and the tears still poured down his cheeks. His pale skin was highlighted by the dirty white straitjacket restraining his torso and arms. His semi-hard cock rested against his thigh.

Smoldering with intensity, Simon's eyes moved over Tommy's shuddering form. Tight black jeans showed off how tanned the rest of him was. “Time to get in the water, little boy,” he growled.

“Ye-yes, sir,” Tommy whimpered. His toes pushed into the sand.

Simon moved behind Tommy. His lips pressed against the metal-encircled neck. “Are you my good boy?”

“Yes, yes! Please, sir.” Tommy jerked as Simon obviously worked on the buckles. “Need you.”

“Of course you do.” Simon reached around Tommy to pull his arms away from his body. “How is it feeling so far?”

“Okay. Um, miss the... tightness.” Tommy wavered on his feet as if ready to fall to his knees.

Circling around to Tommy's front again, Simon paused and placed his hand on Tommy's cheek. “I'll hold you tight in a moment.” He grabbed the jacket at the shoulders and eased it off Tommy before tossing it to the floor. With flying fingers and pushing hands, he removed his jeans and pulled Tommy back against him. His eyes closing in bliss, he kissed Tommy hard until the boy moaned against him. Continuing in the kiss, he walked them backward to the pool. “Easy now,” he muttered into the kiss as they took gentle steps into the warm water. He helped Tommy to ease down into the pool so they could lean against the side.

“Love you, love you.” Tommy's head rocked against the pool's side.

“Love you too. Relax now.” Simon brushed Tommy's hair away from his face. “Such a good boy.” He sprinkled kisses over his love's moist face.

“Might I be a little more than a voyeur?” I asked Simon.

Simon nodded. “Just keep your voice down.”

“Was he very wound up?” I asked.

Simon nodded again.

“Has he earned an orgasm?”

Rolling his eyes, Simon asked, “Is that all you think of?” Before I could respond, he continued on, “First this bath and then probably some snacks. You saw how I marked his ass and thighs, yes?”

Tommy pressed his face against Simon's neck.

Simon wrapped his arms around Tommy's chest and held him tight. “Sh, little boy. You don't have to be alone ever again.”

I held in any comment; poor Tommy, still so hurt by his parents' abuse too. Looking around, I spotted a perspiring bottle of water and held it out to Simon.

“Thanks.” Simon took the bottle and pushed the cap off with the same hand. “Tommy, drink.”

Tommy lifted his head enough to give his lips to Simon and the water bottle. He drank deeply until seized with a coughing fit.

Simon patted Tommy's back and passed the half-empty bottle to me. “Okay?”

“Mhm.” Tommy pressed down against Simon. Then his ass lifted just out of the water. “Awww,” he sighed.

“Good, little boy. Did you have a good orgasm?” Simon cooed.

“Yes, love.” Tommy coughed again.

“I love watching you two, whatever you're doing,” I said.

“We do tend to play harder than you enjoy for yourself with Shaman anymore.” Simon accepted the water bottle back from me. “Can you tell Raanan that he and Gaelan need to change the water?”

“Sure.” Careful not to lose my balance on the sand, I crossed the room to the intercom box. I looked closely at what I'd never described well in the Vala's Story books. My gaze sped through the sections until I found first the slave quarters and then Raanan's room. “Raanan? Simon wants the water in the Oasis changed in awhile.”

“Got it, my Lord,” Raanan said a moment later. “Joelle, good to hear your voice.”

I returned to the blanket and knocked the sand off my feet.

Tommy looked into my eyes for a long moment before muttering, “Thanks, Joelle.”

​“You're welcome. I hope you enjoy the rest of aftercare.” I leaned back against the wall and pondered what I'd been invited to watch.

While I teased on Facebook, this post is mostly unshared. So many think about "Ooo, sexy to do something outside," but with my sun allergy, most sexual things are off the metaphorical table for me when the sun's up. However, Vala had a lovely suggestion for sexuality outside at night.
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​Vala laid out the outdoors blanket beside the circle of pine trees. She then reclined on it. “You joining me?”

I dropped to my knees on the blanket and crawled close to her. “Here.” I giggled when I thought of my needless speech; she could feel me, but not hear my word. I took her left hand in mine and carefully signed, “How are you?”

“I'm good. I do so love how you don't mind the tactile signing for me while I speak for you.” Vala squeezed my hand for a moment.

I took in a deep breath before fingerspelling, “Accommodation.”

She laughed. “Spelled it! Remember to ask Adan if there's a sign to that concept.” She led my right hand between my legs and took my left hand in hers, encouraging my arm to lay across my body.

Hearing the ASL gloss in my mind, I saw myself signing, “Good to be outside at night. Feels good.” Clouds moved away from in front of the moon, allowing me to better see our bodies, our joined hands, the other hands starting to stroke.

A light breeze kissed our bodies and Vala's nipples grew harder in my sight, even as I felt mine swell with the arousal of the situation. Her femininity near me felt the perfect balance to being Shaman's fucktoy this morning, bringing me into the fullness of gender although still without binary gender.

“We can lay here and enjoy our orgasms as long as we want,” Vala murmured. “Soma's watching Eoin.”

I spelt, “Good,” into her hand. I felt and saw Shaman gently placing His foot and some of His weight on my cheek. A pulse of sensation exploded in my clit.

“After we've enjoyed ourselves, I get to sleep in The Queen's bed tonight,” Vala commented, her breath coming in quickening pants as her own pleasure steadily grew. “Deep pressure, like impact.”

Her words caressed my skin. I twined my right leg with her left. “Impact.” I heard the sound of a flogger hitting skin somewhere near us, but couldn't see the players.

“How do you deal with your shifting attention?” Vala asked.

I laughed; to answer Vala's question required far more signs than I knew.

“I know. You've gotten used to your mind's stimming. I'm really more used to it than my question would suggest. I suppose it's sort of like having multiple, possible arousals all at the same time.”

“Like,” I signed into Vala's hand. I felt her voice as an orgasm in my mind. Her curls brushed against my shoulder and I pressed my toes into the blanket. “Come,” I signed.

She gave my hand three quick squeezes. Twitching, she must have been coming too. She said, “Pretty, pretty girl. What's it like, the difference between Shaman masturbating you and not stopping at one orgasm, like you so often do when you're masturbating in bed by yourself? Don't worry. That's mostly rhetorical. Fingerspelling would be too much and you might not know all the signs to answer. I don't have the same pattern though. Whether it's by myself or with any number of partners, it's only permission from someone above me that generally limits the number of orgasms.”

My fingers slipped between my legs again; her words inspired me to more. Slippery with mucous from the Bartholin's gland, my fingers glided over my clit. I jammed my middle finger into my cunt as Vala's touch and echoes of Shaman's touch vibrated through me.

Her lips pressed against my shoulder as she sought her own pleasure. “The moon light sometimes gives the prettiest bit of illumination.” Mouth opening on the point of my shoulder, she sucked lightly on my skin.

“Yes,” I signed into her hand.

“Are you feeling that overwhelm that it makes it difficult for you to continue pleasuring yourself?”

I considered a moment before signing again, “Yes.”

“Don't you think you deserve this pleasure?”

I moved my hand in an awkward, one-handed, “Maybe.”

“Your pleasure gives me enjoyment too.”

Middle finger in my cunt, thumb working against my clit, her words bounced around in my mind beyond her speaking them. The orgasm snuck up on me and I squeezed her hand through the release, no word or picture coming to my mouth, hands, or mind.

“That's lovely.” She gasped through her own orgasm.

I pondered the correct signs for the words I heard in my mind; I saw the ASL gloss on the screen up to communicate with Vala if needed. The moon appeared large and bright in the sky above us. Removing my hand from hers, I carefully signed, “Feel-good, talk-none.” More or less the correct glossing in my head, on my fingers, letting Vala know my gratitude.

​“Good night.” She kissed my cheek. “Maybe those players with the flogger with join you soon."

When this post goes live, I'll be 15 days into Camp Nano July, writing away at the second book to jack & Laura's trilogy. I hope you enjoy this snippet of their first book, "Laura Challenges."
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Jack scrolled over the page of sex toys. He smiled at one particularly intriguing set. "She would look hot in those black cuffs." He returned to the top of the page and made a note of the store's location and hours. He sighed and shook his head. "Can't go acting like a teen boy."

A bark beside his office chair alerted him to Mike's presence.

​He leaned over to pet his dog's sandy-colored head. "I think Laura will be excited to find out about you."

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​"Laura Learns"

When Laura goes out one night, she doesn't expect to meet a handsome eligible man. She definitely doesn't expect him to be interested in her or to ask her out on a date. Laura hits it off with Jack right from the beginning and there's an easy connection between them. But an experience on their remarkable first date pushes her to wonder if she can have something more with Jack.

Would he be a compatible partner in meeting her sexual desires? Laura decides she wants to push her own boundaries and explore the world of BDSM. Can Jack still be the man for her? She'll find out if he's up to take her challenge.

Author's Note: This book includes spankings, BDSM activities, sexual activity between a cisgender man and a cisgender woman. Please do not buy if such material offends you.

Available on:
Amazon
Amazon UK
B&N

My name is Joelle and my pronouns are she, he, or they.

I like that statement much better than “I'm pronoun indifferent.” Of course, I could go some better- “My name is Joelle, I'm agender, and my pronouns are he, she, or they.” I wonder if changing the pronoun order would startle people, since much of my presentation seems “feminine.” At a recent meeting I attended, a person used “they” for me and it was strangely pleasing. Maybe not so strangely- the first time I masturbated to orgasm after getting on an anti-depressant, it was The Queen calling me “boy” that pushed me over the edge into release.

I grew angry at one support group session where some people referred to “she/her” as “feminine” pronouns; I vented, “What does that mean when I as an agender person use she/her?” After all, languages evolve over time; when I first pondered my gender as a youngster, the terms non-binary and agender didn't exist, as far as I knew.

“Joelle ate most of his chips, but didn't finish their salad because her stomach was full.” I find that quite an enjoyable sentence. :D “He opened their can of energy drink and she took a sip.” Yes, this would be why I encouraged Happy to try out different pronouns one at a time until joy settled on the noun-self pronouns joy/joys/joyself.

While the previous paragraph was meant to show how switching pronouns in the midst of one sentence or paragraph could cause confusion, I have to admit that a person's pronouns changing regularly, like for a genderqueer person, is something that I find confusing. Of course, the way in which genderqueer/genderfluid people experience their pronouns, I don't think it's quite like pronoun indifference such as I have. As an agender person, I only feel gender in relation to other people, almost as a reflection of what gender they see me to be.

Among the things that complicated coming out as non-binary for me, not wanting to change my name or my pronouns was something that made me feel less valid. A little explanation- my daughter told me she's transgender, asked to be called a new name and she/her pronouns before I came out as agender. Also, as I looked at non-binary YouTubers, I was struck by “come out, hair cut, they/them pronouns”- it seemed almost formulaic to me. And none of it felt right to me. It wasn't until I was able to consider things like “I want to wear a chest binder sometimes” before I was able to settle into comfort with my pronouns as they are; I still felt too much like I was appropriating someone else's struggle to consider anything but the pronouns of my assigned gender.

​When it comes to writing, I'm glad that “What are their pronouns?” is a standard thing I consider when creating a new character; I don't assume cisgender people using the pronouns of their assigned gender.